Saturn Day Thoughts

Regulating the Nervous System within an Unregulated System

The energy of anxiety has been a pretty constant visitor for as long as I can remember. I can feel it in my body, in my shoulders that seem to never properly rest, in my jaw that tenses up at the most seemingly random times (there’s nothing random about it) and the feeling of my feet not fully being on the ground, body moving forward on the ready to “go”. But to where?

I imagine it’s a combination of inherited stress passed down over generations, and being in a society that is sick at the foundation, making everyone who is in it, sick. Me taking my deep breaths as I just did, aware of how I am taking up space, is a radical and important step to reclaiming my right to have a regulated nervous system.

This reminds me of when I was in NYC a few weeks back and I almost fell back into the rhythm of the concrete jungle, where people are in a rush, unhappy, short, and impatient. This is not a judgement of the people, who are just making the most of what they’ve been given. They’re all in survival mode. They have a train to catch, that will leave whether they are there on it or not. Maybe we take that mindset into everything we do, feeling like it’s never enough time, never enough resources, never enough space…never enough. I don’t want to subscribe to that mindset anymore.

There is plenty of enough. So I can, and will, take my time and space. Slowing down physically, I believe, gives my mind and spirit permission to do the same. They’re like, “Oh, we’re safe. Okay, proceed with the ease.” Slowing down creates an opportunity for presence, both for us to engage in it, and for Presence to engage with us. It’s a sure way to seduce inspiration and creativity. So, I’ll take my time, please and thank you.